I don’t usually forget important things. | Oh no, I was supposed to call that one phonecall! | ….shit did I forgot to turn off the stove?! | And I’m not usually late… | Agh, I was supposed to be in Kallio 15 minutes ago! Where’s my keys?! | What’s wrong with me??
Specially today… | Everything that happens, is somehow separate from me. Everything happens outside of me | Somewhere else. | And I’m ready to fall apart on my thoughts. | But I can’t dissapear yet. | I have to wait for next month. | And that’s quite soon. | That is if I do lots of work now, so I can make a small place for myself.
What are you worrying about, small thing?
You are something.
Well duh, of course I don’t really CARE about you, I’m just saying it’s not wise to go away.
Hei,
Minulla stressi ilmenee juuri noin. Alan unohdella asioita, tarkistan levyjä ja ulko-oven lukitsemisia, alan myöhästellä, alan lykätä asioita – sitkutella. Myös tuo erillään kaikesta ja ulkopuolella kokemus on hyvin tuttu ajoilta jolloin olin hyvin uupunut. Nykyään osaan (tai kuvittelen osaavani) ottaa aikalisän, kun stressioireet ilmenevät. Sanon kaikille tylysti ei ja toivun hetken tai pidemmän aikaa.
Antti
PS. Je trouve tes BDs super!
Mari, tämä on niiiiin o-su-va.